Friday, April 17, 2009

5 years in the game

It's been more than five years now since I made that first $100 deposit to Party Poker and blew through it in just a few minutes. That second $100 deposit is still paying off.

After playing these countless hands, I ask myself where I should be in the game. The answer I'm getting is that I'm already exactly where I should be -- winning at 5/10 playing three of four tables for 1.5 to 2 hours daily.

Efforts to move up have never paid off. That isn't to say that I won't play higher if the game looks good and my bankroll allows it, but it means that my desire to play higher is fruitless if I can't consistently win there.

I'm thankful that I have enough ability and knowledge to earn as much as I do. But being aware of my limits and accepting them are different things.

A contradiction in my mindset is that one of my biggest leaks is also my strongest motivation. The leak is that I'm jealous of players who win more than me, can play more tables than me and can pull off more creative moves than me. The motivation is that I force myself to study harder and play regularly to defeat those players.

The solution is to be content, focus on the long-term and play more optimally. My new goal is to avoid spews by keeping it simple, concentrating on the hand in front of my and forgetting about irrelevant ambitions.

1 comment:

Guin said...

congrats on 5 years of playing poker... keep up the great posts.